to Canada and undertook psychotherapy. This eased up my dressing desires but not enough. The widow and I married over much protest from her mother and father and her husband's parents. Within a few years I again had a wardrobe and was dressing in motel rooms. We never talked about TV, both of us being gun shy on the subject. I had severe depressions and drank. Doctors gave me tranquilizers and these led to accidents and a stay in jail. My wife and I blamed a lot on drinking so I joined AA. However, the desire to dress was ever present. I became close friends with my secretary who accepted me completely but she had her own problems. Once again I could not meet my wife's sexual demands, but we overcame this obstacle by other means which pleased her and permitted me to take on a more feminine role in sex play. My step-daughter never accepted me as her father. She told her grandparents that I had molested her. My wife stood by her daughter and this led to another divorce.

The day my wife and children drove off, I dressed completely, got tight and passed out on the living room sofa. A friend entered the house and found me. He left and returned with the VP of my company and showed him. They consulted an MD who classified me as an HS. I was fired the next day. I did not in truth know what I was. I moved to Boston, took on two teaching jobs and started my own company.

Naturally I continued to dress and this time hunted in earnest for TV information. I finally struck pay dirt after reading an article by Virginia in Sexology Guide. I wrote to Virginia in care of the publisher. Virginia offered to go to bat for me with the agency who fired me but I preferred to not compound one problem with another. Someday this will be corrected as I now tend to move in the direction of public education re TVism. I am, however, still grateful to V. for her offer to fight my battle.

It has been over a year since starting on what feels like a whole new life. TVia first opened my world and then other members of FPE opened it further. . .as did an extremely understanding psychiatrist who seems to be learning right along with me. (He teaches other psychiatrists who are presently residents). My former wife is also learning via a psychologist, me, and the wife's book. She has attended an FPE social gathering and we now talk TV topics very much at ease. I have,

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